My first binge. It was love at first bite. It was me, almond butter, ice cream, and a spoon. I had no clue that night on the kitchen floor would make me feel so out of control, so intoxicated, so high on food.
One bite of almond butter, and I was hooked! One bite turned into two, into three, till the whole jar was gone. Same for the ice cream. I ate it all and I ate it fast! I wanted more. I desired everything sweet, everything that I wouldn't dare allow on my daily “diet.”
During a binge, I swore it would be the last time I'd allow or eat any of these foods, but I was wrong. It wouldn’t be the last time. I would eventually binge again.
It hurt my stomach, my heart felt like it was about to beat out of my chest, and it made me sweat. A LOT!
Believe me, cramming your face is FAR from sexy and FAR from fun! Binge eating was like a high that consumed me, all of me…. I never felt full. It was the worst relationship in terms of how it effected my self esteem.
After the binge, I’d attempt to walk off all that I ate, and typically I wouldn’t eat for a couple days to “make up” for eating like there was no tomorrow. I’d put on my stretchy pants because of the bloating, my eyes were puffy, and my muscles felt sore.
There was no happy medium when it came to the battle of the splurge.
Have you done this? If so, I am NOT judging you. I want to help you.
I know it sucks when you feel out of control. I know it sucks when you want help but don’t know where to start. I know it sucks to feel like you're the only one that can eat and never feel satisfied. You are NOT alone, nor are you stuck forever in this vicious cycle.
I want to give you some tips. They're not a quick fix, but with practice, you WILL break the binge....one day at a time.
Here we go:
1.) Get rid of the diet: That’s right. Stop obsessing over EVERY...SINGLE...FOOD that enters your body. Hence, intuitive eating really helped me with this.
2.) Take a deep breath. If it’s your nerves that are bothering you, keep a journal, meditate, do some yoga, call a friend. Find something to distract your mind.
3.) Delay. Delay. Delay. Not heading straight for the pantry when you feel the need to binge will help tremendously. Even if you’re unsure if you’ll be able to fight the urge to binge, make an effort to delay it.
4.) Stop trying to be perfect. No one is perfect.
5.) Be patient. It takes time to break a habit. Keep focusing on your WHY you want to be binge free!
6.) Be kind to yourself. You are going to slip, it happens. Give yourself credit to understand it’s a process.
I believe in you 110%.
Let me know if you have any questions.